செவ்வாய், 18 ஆகஸ்ட், 2026

ABLAZE RETREAT NOTES DAY 3: (What Does the Holy Spirit Do in Our Life?)


Mass at the chapel of the Jesuit Generalate, presided over by Cardinal Müller: Talk after the Mass:

Saint Paul teaches: “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you?” (1 Cor 6:19). My body is myself—this I cannot change.

The Church is the Mystical Body of Christ. Christ is the head; the Church is the spouse of Christ (Eph 5:25-27). Saint Cyprian says separation from the Church is like adultery. Truth is not a system of ideas, but Jesus himself (Jn 14:6).

The Church is united—not like a political party or any organization, but as an image of the Triune unity. Tertullian calls the Church the body of the Trinity because “we are baptized in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit” (Mt 28:19). The Church is visible communion.

From Roman emperors to kings throughout history—including today’s world leaders—none can save the world. They promise it, but fail completely. The Epstein files scandals and involvement of great leaders show this clearly.

We are called to different leadership. The Pope is servus servorum Dei—servant of the servants of God. The Church is not nation-based. King Henry VIII declared the Pope could not be the visible head of the Church; he made himself head and founded the Church of England. But the Church cannot be of England; the Church is in England, in India, in Italy, everywhere. The Church has her own God-given mission. She cannot serve the function of nations.

God’s revelation transcends national territories and cultural barriers. It is neither Western nor Eastern. Today countries like China embrace communism and reject Christianity as a “Western product.” But the irony is that communism and Marxism are the true Western products—not the Church or Christ’s revelation of God’s mystery.

The same misunderstanding exists in India. Christianity does not spread Western culture; rather, Western culture has often adopted Christian values.

Saint Cyprian says: Prayer is not to avoid problems, but to overcome them. Every day let us pray Jesus’ words: “Thy will be done” (Mt 6:10).

Fr Augustine: How Do We Experience the Holy Spirit in Our Life?

Acts 1:8 says: “Wait and pray until you are clothed with power from on high.” They all gathered together—along with some women, the brothers of Jesus, and his mother Mary—and were praying (Acts 1:14).

Luke 1:35: “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you” (Lk 1:35). “Nothing will be impossible for God” (Lk 1:37).

Mother Mary was the first person to receive the promise of the Holy Spirit in the Gospel. She was deeply troubled—a woman conceiving without knowing her husband would face stoning. She did not understand everything. But she surrendered completely to the will of God. The spirituality of surrender: waiting, praying, and surrendering.

What Does the Holy Spirit Do in Our Life?

Jesus gives five names for the Holy Spirit.

1.      Fire. 

Luke 12:49: “I came to cast fire on the earth, and would that it were already kindled!” (Lk 12:49).  Matthew 3:11: “He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire” (Mt 3:11).  Acts 2:3: Tongues of fire appeared (Acts 2:3). The disciples were cowards until they were sanctified by the Holy Spirit. Saint Paul recognized the power of sin in his life: “I want to do good, but I cannot do it; I do the opposite” (Rom 7:18–19). Jesus says: “Temptations are bound to come” (Lk 17:1).

A young man with shaking hands—a seemingly addicted college student—came to speak with me about his situation. Because of peer group pressure, he had fallen into addiction. He said simply: “Father, I don’t want to waste my life.” After participating in the retreat, he returned to college transformed. He testified: “Now I know how to handle temptations—with prayer and surrender. Still there are moments of temptation, but in those moments I make it my prayer time. So I don’t feel isolated, but perfectly connected.”

It was his secular college—there was no space to pray. Now a few more youth have come together and formed a prayer group, shedding light and hope across the college campus.

Our hope is in the Holy Spirit. Whatever our temptations may be, we wait, we pray, and we surrender.

2.     The Spirit of Truth (Jn 16:13)

“When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth” (Jn 16:13).

We most often react to partial truth. “I failed the exam—so I am incapable of anything.” But this is not the whole truth. Failures make us sad, sick, desperate. Yet they are not the end.

Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the plans I have for you… plans for welfare and not for evil” (Jer 29:11). God’s plan is the whole truth. We are not accidents in the world; we are sent with God’s purpose.

When failure or sickness comes, we wait, pray, surrender. The Holy Spirit reveals the whole truth. Romans 8:28: “We know that all things work together for good for those who love God” (Rom 8:28). Can you believe this? Nothing that happens to us is unfortunate—it works for our good. Ephesians 2:10: “We are what he has made us, created in Christ Jesus for good works” (Eph 2:10).

Imagine a potter at work. His feet move the wheel, his hands shape the clay. Only the plan in his mind coordinates everything—until a beautiful pot or flower vase emerges. The same in our life: we don’t need to understand everything. We need only surrender to God’s will—especially at moments of failure.

3.     The Paraclete (Jn 14:16)

Jesus says: “I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Paraclete to be with you always” (Jn 14:16). The Holy Spirit comforts us at all times. Even after the Annunciation, Mary was comforted by the Holy Spirit. She became the ambassador of joy. The only true Comforter in our life is the Holy Spirit.

A couple fought bitterly. Exhausted, they decided to go to a film for relief. But the movie showed nonstop fighting! They left even more distressed. It seems funny, but most of the time we seek comfort in the wrong places. The Holy Spirit is our true comfort.

Today we want everything at one touch. One touch to light, one touch for food, one touch for everything. We have forgotten the art of waiting, praying, and surrendering.

A funny story about Saint Anthony of Padua: He performed miracles daily. His superior thought he was acting imprudently (as superiors often do). He ordered: “Anthony, you are doing too many miracles. From now on, get permission before any miracle.”

The next day, on his way back to the community, Anthony saw a man falling from a construction site. He raised his hand and held the man suspended in the air. Then he hurried back to the superior:“Father, permission to continue the miracle? The man is still hanging in the air!”

4.     A Spring of Living Water (Jn 4:14)

Jesus promises: “Whoever drinks the water I shall give him will never thirst; the water I shall give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life” (Jn 4:14).

In a village, a couple earned their bread through agriculture. One day the woman heard her brother was sick. She told her husband: “I must go care for him. Eat the food I’ve prepared and drink water from the well in front of our house.”

The next day, the man went to the well, peered in, and calculated in his mind: “There must be only 10 buckets of water left.” So he decided to fetch water from the distant public well instead.

He didn’t know the well would keep springing water—no matter how much you drew!

5.     The Gifts and Fruits of the Holy Spirit

1 Corinthians 12:30: “Do all speak in tongues? Do all heal? Do all work miracles? … But I shall show you a still more excellent gift” (1 Cor 12:30). “If I do not have love, I am nothing” (1 Cor 13:2). The Letter to the Galatians speaks of the fruits of the Holy Spirit (Gal 5:22–23). Love is the first fruit. The power of a mango tree is in its fruit. Love is the power of the Spirit—not mere sentiment, but commitment. Forgiveness is the highest manifestation of love.

Joy is also a power. It enables us to rejoice even in difficulties.

A man came to me: “Father, please pray for me.” I said I would. Then I asked: “What should I pray for?” He replied: “No peace, no joy, no love, Father.” “What happened to you?” I asked. “Don’t you have a job?”  “I have a good job,” he said. “But because of traffic, I arrive late every day. My boss—a lady—cuts my salary in half every month. My wife fights with me because of it.”

Six months later, he returned with a joyful face. “What happened?” I asked. “That lady boss was transferred. The new boss is understanding, and my wife is happy now.” I told him: “You are happy because of external circumstances. But you cannot always control external things. Your peace and joy should not depend on the outside world—they should flow from within you. Whenever there is a problem, get connected to Jesus. Wait, pray, and surrender.”

Listening to the Voice of God (Mt 7:24–28)

Matthew 7:24–28: The wise man built his house on rock; the foolish man on sand. Winds, rain, and storms come to both, but what matters is where you build your house. It is not enough just to “read” the Bible. We must listen to the voice of God. Jesus often heard the Father’s voice: “This is my beloved Son; listen to him” (Mt 17:5). He himself says: “My sheep hear my voice” (Jn 10:27). Hebrews 4:12: “The word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword” (Heb 4:12). Not dead letters printed on a page, but fully alive.

Matthew 10:30: “Even the hairs of your head are all numbered” (Mt 10:30). No detail of our life escapes God’s sight.  Psalm 56:8: “You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle” (Ps 56:8).  Psalm 119:92: “If your law had not been my delight, I would have perished in my affliction” (Ps 119:92).

When you read the Bible, listen for God’s voice—it speaks something only for you.

There are three layers of listening:

·       Historical layer: Know that real events happened in the past. You are not reading a fairy tale.

·       Revelation layer:  Everything reveals God. King David—a small shepherd boy—became king, but fell into sin. God saw his sin, yet when the prophet Nathan brought God’s word, David repented and was forgiven. God is merciful—he does not wait to punish, but to forgive.

·       Personal message:  This is between you and God. Do not close the Bible until you receive your message. “The Bible is a love letter God has written to me,” says Saint Augustine.

An event: During my seminary days, my father sent a letter every month. I would hold it to my heart, read it as if seeing my father’s face speaking to me. I read it again and again. The content was often the same, but I read with great love—because it carried my father’s message.

Do not open the Bible without praying to the Holy Spirit. Then you receive your personalized message. The Word of God should become the joy of your life. Whenever I felt bored in the seminary, I read my father’s letters and felt encouraged. Let the Bible become your love letter.

A testimony: A college girl, very smart and her school’s topper, wanted to pursue higher studies. But her family could not afford it. She decided to work for one year to save money. She went for job interviews but failed everywhere. Afraid she would never study, she opened the Bible.

She read the passage from Mark’s Gospel where Jesus raises the daughter of Jairus (Mk 5:35–43). “Do not fear, only believe” (Mk 5:36). She felt God speaking to her: “Do not be afraid.” She surrendered to these words, and all her fear vanished. “Now I know my God is with me,” she said.

Jesus said to the girl: Talitha cum— “Little girl, I say to you, arise” (Mk 5:41). The young woman rose with confidence. That day she went to her interview, everything went well, and she got the job.

Morning Meditation: Building on the Rock

What do I do during my morning meditation? Is it just a timetable? Is it merely a continuation of my bedtime prayer?

Psalm 5:3: “At dawn I bring my plea expectantly before you” (Ps 5:3). My God is waiting to speak to me. The whole day will be bright. We will face problems, but we will not break down—for God is fighting with me (cf. Ex 14:14).

Mark 1:12: Jesus curses the fig tree (Mk 11:12–14). He was hungry and saw a fig tree with fresh leaves, but no fruit. He cursed it, and the next day it was withered (Mk 11:20–21).

Why curse the tree if it was not the season for figs? There is symbolic meaning—a prophecy in action. I am the fig tree in my family, workplace, community. Can hungry people find any fruit in me?

Matthew 25:40: “Whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me” (Mt 25:40).

A man knocked on my door and burst in before I could say “Come in.” With an angry tone he shouted: “Father Augustine, I hate you!”

He had sent me an email to book a room for his retreat, but at reception it wasn’t reserved. I invited him to sit and talk, but he kept shouting. I stayed patient and, with a few phone calls, resolved his issue. I could have shouted back—but that would not have brought him peace or turned him from hating all priests for life.

Some people think they have a license to judge everyone. John 15:16: “I have anointed you to bear fruit” (Jn 15:16). In season and out of season (2 Tim 4:2). If there is no fruit, there is a curse.

How many people are hurt because of me? People may shout at us, but we have no right to shout back.  Loving those who love us comes naturally. Loving those who wound us is transformative. It does not mean approving evil, nor giving up on justice. It means not allowing evil to define our heart. It means breaking the chain of negative reciprocity. The real question is not: “Do I have enemies?” The real question is: “Do I allow the enemy to determine who I am?”

Begin the day with the Word of God!



ABLAZE RETREAT NOTES DAY 2: (Complete Surrender: Love Without Reserve)

Jesus asked Peter, “Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these?” (Jn 21:15-17). He didn’t reproach, “Why did you betray me?” Jeremiah promises, “I will purify them from all the sin they have committed against me” (Jer 33:8).

When you want to give something to God, what should be your attitude?

·       What I am:

 St. Paul urges, “Offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God” (Rom 12:1).

As a child, I walked to church with my elder sister. In our garden, I’d grown a rose plant; one day, a perfect flower bloomed. Curious, I plucked it to bring to Mass. Along the way, I pulled off a petal, crushed it, and inhaled its scent.

My sister saw, slapped my hand sharply, and tossed the flower into a dustbin. Tears flowed through Mass as I brooded over her rebuke. Home at last, I ran to Mother to complain—but sister spoke first, then gently taught me: “When offering to God, give wholly, holding nothing back for yourself. Let it carry its full fragrance—not something you’ve already savored.”

What Does It Cost You? What does it cost you, what you have offered to God?

·        Whatever I Have

We all know the story of Cain and Abel. The first murder in human history happened because of a lack of surrender, and innocent blood was shed. Cain brought some of the fruits of the soil, but Abel offered “fat portions from some of the firstborn of his flock” (Gen 4:3–4). Cain gave something; Abel gave his best. What we offer to God with our whole heart, He can make great and use for salvation.

Remember the wedding feast at Cana. Simple water became choice wine because they filled the six stone jars “to the brim” (Jn 2:7), not halfway. Their completeness made room for the miracle.

Remember also the multiplication of the five loaves to feed the five thousand (Jn 6:1–13). Five loaves were far too small to satisfy such a crowd, yet once placed totally in Jesus’ hands, they multiplied. Blessings multiply when we are ready to surrender everything we have to God—however little it seems.

And the poor widow who offered two small coins made a greater “noise” in heaven than the rich who gave large sums. “This poor widow has put in more than all the others… she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on” (Mk 12:41–44). Her offering was outwardly small but inwardly total. Her silent, complete surrender caught the attention of Jesus.

·       What Do I Want to Be

I should offer not only what I have, not only what I am, but also what I desire to be.

I happened to meet a vocation promoter of a congregation. He asked me, “Fr., do you know how I call young people to our congregation?” He said, “I promise them they will be sent to the USA.” This sounds funny, but it’s the sad reality of vocations today.

We all know the two pillars of the Church: Peter and Paul. Peter came from a small village. He knew only fishing. We have no information about his studies. He knew how to catch fish, sell it, and earn bread for his family.

But Paul was born a Jew, a Pharisee, an expert in the law, trained under great masters like Gamaliel (Acts 22:3).

Do you know who was sent to argue in the Sanhedrin, the highest assembly of Jewish scholars and priests? It was not Saint Paul, but Peter (Acts 4:1-13). Paul was sent to the Gentiles (Acts 9:15). He knew everything to prove to Jewish scholars, skilled in great arguments. Yet he was sent to people who never knew the God of Israel. Whatever he had studied seemed “wasted.”

God seems unreasonable, but surrender your future too—He will make you a blessing to the multitude of God’s people. 

Saint Joseph’s Surrender: Trust in God’s Plan

Saint Joseph was a carpenter. He worked hard to feed his family. He loved Mary, the beautiful young girl. He dreamed of a happy life with her, supported by his carpentry earnings. Suddenly, an atomic bomb exploded in his life: Mary was pregnant. He faced two choices—to denounce her to the synagogue or find another woman. But he thought, “I’m sure Mary wouldn’t do this.” So he planned to run away quietly, as public exposure was dangerous.

Joseph, what did he do? He slept. An angel revealed everything in a dream (Mt 1:20-21). He understood God’s plan. Serenity returned, along with the challenge to fulfill God’s will. He accepted Mary as his wife—not as an ordinary wife, but as the Mother of God’s Son. Joseph questioned nothing. He waited and surrendered his future to God. Then Joseph was happy.

We read in the Bible Jesus saying, “Which one of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake?” (Mt 7:9-10). How did Jesus know a father gives only good things? Because of Joseph. And Jesus called God “Abba”—the same intimate word he used for Joseph (cf. Mk 14:36; Gal 4:6).

Renewing the Heart: Mercy Over Retaliation

We all know critics who professionally critique cinema or politics. One day, a critic was bitten by a mad dog. Days later, learning he’d go mad and die soon, he urgently asked his friend for paper and pen. “Why?” the friend asked. “I need to write down these names—then go bite them all!”

Why do we want to hurt others? It’s the poison inside our hearts. How can we remove this poison from us? Jesus accepts we will be misunderstood, hated, etc. Perhaps no one strikes your cheek today (seminary or convent no-touch rules). But they may hurt your heart. Jesus says, “Love your enemies and do good to them… You will be called children of the Most High” (Lk 6:35).

Jesus uses banking language—credit, deposits. What credit do you have? Struck on the cheek, strike back—income and expense balance; no heavenly surplus. Do good instead, building credit in heaven’s account. “Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful” (Lk 6:36).

Christianity’s foundation is mercy. God isn’t just by worldly measure—giving what’s due. If so, our sins would condemn us. God’s justice loves the undeserving.

How do you respond to brothers and sisters? Eye for an eye? When unloved, go love them. When uncared for, go care. That’s our calling. Jesus said, “I will make you fishers of men” (Mt 4:19). We catch neglecting “enemies”—not to harm, but to draw them to God.

The meeting of Jesus with the Samaritan woman took place in a town called Sychar. It was about twelve noon, a hot sunny day (Jn 4:5–6). Jesus asked her for water, and instead of simply giving Him a drink, she began an argument. But Jesus did not argue on the same level; He used this chance to reveal God’s love and forgiveness, making her a child of God—and through her, He reached her whole village (Jn 4:28–30, 39–42).

Again, we have the story of Zacchaeus. Jesus knew the Pharisees would find fault with Him for going to his house, but He went willingly and “owned” Zacchaeus and his whole household: “Today salvation has come to this house” (Lk 19:9–10). This is what Jesus meant by “fishers of men.”

The betrayal of Peter: On the night before His crucifixion, as Jesus was led away, the Lord turned and looked at Peter; Peter’s eyes were full of tears after denying his Master (Lk 22:61–62). There Jesus “gained” the first Pope. “I have not lost a single one of those whom you gave me” (Jn 17:12). Jesus knows that the Samaritan woman, Zacchaeus, and Peter—all were given to Him by the Father, and He does not want to lose them, but win them by His unconditional love.

Most of the time, we behave as ambassadors of justice, not as ambassadors of mercy: “If he or she shouts at me, why should I keep quiet? I can’t forgive. I will never talk to him again.” These are the voices in our mind. But when we forgive others, we receive grace upon grace.

What happens when we forgive? What does the Bible say?

1.     Mark 11:24–25 – Your prayer will be answered. 

“Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins” (Mk 11:24–25)

2.     Matthew 5:23–24 – Your offering will be accepted. 

When you are offering your gift at the altar, if you remember that your brother or sister has something against you, leave your gift there… first be reconciled… then come and offer your gift.” We say, “I did not do anything—why should I say sorry?” Maybe you did nothing intentionally, but your brother or sister is hurt. Go and be reconciled. This is what we call “life sacrifice,” which is more important than altar sacrifice.

At Mass the priest says, “Pray… that my sacrifice and yours may be acceptable to God.” For our offerings to be acceptable, our heart must be free from hatred, anger, jealousy, etc.

Why so much unhappiness and boredom in our life? Perhaps because we have not forgiven enough. If community members go together for Holy Mass and are not speaking to each other, there is no use. What you do at the altar is not sacrifice but sacrilege. Be careful.

3.     Matthew 6:15 – Your sins will be forgiven. 

If you do not forgive others, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.” Even the sacrament of Confession becomes “less useful” if I have not forgiven my brothers and sisters. Why have I not overcome bad habits—masturbation, pornography, alcoholism, any addiction—though I attend daily Mass? It may be because I have not forgiven enough. We go to confession and repeat the same sins again and again. Are we not forgiven? The problem is often our lack of forgiveness toward others.

4.     James 5:15 – Your sickness will be healed. 

If someone is sick, let them call for the presbyters of the Church… the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise them up; and if they have committed sins, they will be forgiven” (Jas 5:15). When we forgive and are forgiven, even our physical illnesses can be touched by God’s healing.

A Life Story of Forgiveness

When I was young, I was arrogant. Fresh from my doctorate in Rome, I returned to India and was appointed rector of the seminary—with hundreds of students and five staff. An older priest in the community seemed displeased with my appointment.

Once, I changed the community timetable. At table, he remarked, “The rector is imprudent; it won’t change anything.” Though much my senior, I snapped, “Mind your business. I am the rector here.” I felt proud, thinking I’d asserted well.

That evening, unease grew: This isn’t how to wield authority in the Church. Sleepless, I rose, went to the chapel, knelt before the Eucharist, and vowed to apologize the next morning.

Suddenly, I saw movement across the chapel. The old priest approached. Shocked, I felt his tears on my palm as he grasped my hand. I began, “I’m sorry,” but he hushed me: “I am sorry.” He left for his room.

Next morning, I went to him again: “Sorry for the scandal I caused in the seminary.” I begged him to be my confessor. He refused at first, but I joked, “I’m the rector —be my confessor!” He agreed, guiding me even after I got transferred to another community. He helped immensely, correcting me many times.

The Lesson of Forgiving Love

Go and get reconciled (Mt 5:24). Jesus washing the feet of his disciples shows this perfect love. From his sitting position—that of a king—Jesus rises like a servant. He sets aside his cloak (sign of the Master) and ties on a towel (sign of the disciple).

When Jesus goes to wash St. Peter’s feet, Peter refuses to be served. Jesus says firmly: “If I don’t wash your feet, you have no share with me” (Jn 13:8). Jesus washes away Peter’s future betrayal. There is no excuse for forgiveness. This is the cost of discipleship.

Our adoration at the altar is only ceremonial if forgiveness is not happening every day. Don’t let this retreat opportunity go in vain. You are chosen here to be reconciled—with God and with your brother.

Suffering: God’s Way vs. Ours (Mt 16:21-26)

Jesus distinguishes how God thinks from how we think. In the context of foretelling his death, Peter says, “Let no such thing happen to you!” But Jesus calls him “Satan” (Mt 16:23)—because Peter blocks God’s will.

How do we face sufferings?

·       Blaming others

A priest visits a house in Paris. An elderly woman shouts and curses. The priest asks, “Who are you shouting at?” She replies, “My daughter-in-law!” “Why?” “She called me a hippopotamus six months ago.” “Then why shout now?” “Only yesterday I saw a hippopotamus at the zoo.”

·       Blaming ourselves.

We think God punishes us for our sins. But our God is not a punishing God—he is a God of mercy.

·       Ancestral curses

Romans 8:1 says, “There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” (Rom 8:1). We are incorporated into Christ—becoming one body, not under curse. Jesus is the head, we are members by baptism. Christ takes upon himself all our curses.

The Meaning of the Cross

Something we cannot always humanly understand about suffering—Jesus gives the answer: “Take up your cross and follow me” (Mt 16:24). Follow where? To Mount Calvary. But Calvary is not the end—it’s the means to glory.

St. Peter wanted to throw the cross away—that’s why Jesus called him Satan. Acts 2:36: “The Christ whom you crucified, God has made Lord and Messiah” (Acts 2:36). The first Church was a suffering Church. Christian Jews were forbidden from synagogues. Yet Acts 5:41 says they left the Sanhedrin “rejoicing that they were counted worthy to suffer dishonor for the name” (Acts 5:41).

1 Peter 4:12-13: “Do not be surprised at the fiery trial… but rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings” (1 Pet 4:12-13). Philippians 3:10: Paul desires “to know the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings” (Phil 3:10).

Paul’s “retirement plan” was not a peaceful house with facilities, as we give elderly priests today. His plan: “to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings” (Phil 3:10). Paul boasts not of churches built, but only of suffering for the Lord (2 Cor 11:23-30). Romans 5:3: Suffering produces endurance, character, hope (Rom 5:3-4).

Sufferings are given for two reasons.

·       To purify us / to sanctify us. 

Romans 5:4 says that suffering produces perseverance, and perseverance produces character, and character produces hope (cf. Rom 5:3–4). 

If sufferings are accepted in the right way, they help us grow into maturity—spiritual maturity.

·       For our salvation and the salvation of others. 

Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake…” (Col 1:24). Christ suffered for the Church, which is his Body. I accept the sufferings that are “lacking” in my flesh, so as to be united with his suffering (Col 1:24).

A lady once came to meet me. She was not walking properly. When I enquired, she said that she had undergone an operation on her leg because of cancer. But then she added: “I have another suffering that is greater than this.” “I have a son; he is 22 years old. His father died when he was very young. At my husband’s coffin, I promised that I would raise our son to a higher place in life. After his schooling, with many difficulties, I prepared him to enter medical college. My son used to tell me: ‘Mom, I want to become a doctor and I want to serve the poor.’

“I sold my house and my land to support my son’s medical education. After he finished school, I came here to the Centre to pray, and afterwards I received the good news that my son had obtained a place in medical college. Now he is in his third year, and his life is in danger because he has fallen into drug addiction. Nowadays he never calls me; even when he does, he only shouts at me and abuses me to get money. I cannot bear the thought that my son might be lost like this.”

We prayed together, and I said: “Sister, there is a direct connection between the tumour in your leg and the conversion of your son.” I quoted again the same verse of Saint Paul, Colossians 1:24.

She replied: “Father, if my son could be converted, I am ready to suffer.” Six months later she called me to ask for an appointment. She came to meet me and said: “Father, yesterday my son called me. I was nervous when I saw his name on my phone. But it was different. He said: ‘I am sorry, Mom. I have made your life a hell. Forgive me.’”

Then she told me what had happened. He had been praying with the crucifix his mother had given him when he entered medical college. While he was praying, he saw rays coming from the wounds of Jesus in the crucifix. He heard a voice speaking to him: “My son, I need you.”

“Mom, I want to change. Jesus tells me in my heart again and again: ‘My son, I need you.’ I and two of my friends, who were also drug addicts with me, want to go to the Divine Retreat Centre.” A few years later, all three of them were serving the poor in the northern part of India.

Saint Monica and Saint Augustine: Suffering as Prayer

Saint Augustine travelled from Carthage to Rome, to Milan, and back to Carthage. His mother, Saint Monica, followed him everywhere, weeping for her wayward son. She met the Bishop of Milan, Saint Ambrose, and asked: “Will I ever get back my son?” Ambrose replied: “Continue to shed tears. It will bring him back” (cf. Confessions, Book III).

What a great conversion! Augustine became one of the greatest saints and intellectuals in Church history. When sufferings come your way, they are not a punishment. Not a curse, but a call.

We can offer them on the altar together with the bread to become the Eucharist. Saint Thérèse of Lisieux converted many sinners through her sufferings and prayer. The world outside cannot understand this mystery. But we can understand—because we are disciples of the Lord Jesus Christ, crucified.